1. |
Our Afterlife
02:55
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I'm free to do whatever I want to
It's not like I want to
But time says we have to
It seems to be the end of our story
But I'll bask in the glory of those four years past
So let's all join hands
Say we won't forget each other
Always talk to one another
So let's draw out a plan
So we don't have to see the light
This is the story of our afterlife
You're free to do whatever you want to
I know that you have to
But it's something I don't want to be
Cause what if you leave me?
If you all of you leave me
That'd probably kill me
And maybe life will make the wrongs all right
And maybe it could be like this till we say goodnight
We'll make our afterlife a heaven
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2. |
Rollercoaster
02:33
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I could lie about this but my face gives it away
I could try and fake it but I'd be acting everyday
I could write a sad song but I'm impartial to shades of grey
I could leave this apartment but I just can't break away
I could turn off my phone but I want to hear it vibrate
I could try and sleep but its so hard to concentrate
I could try and be sad but its too hard when I feel great
I could give a cold stare but I can't keep my face straight
I have a fear of heights
But you make me wanna ride a rollercoaster tonight
I'll dive off the deep end
I'll sing these cliched lines of how I'm so glad you're mine
You make me want to
Fall asleep and never wake up
Cause its you that I dream
And that is enough to make me stay dreaming
You're all that I dream
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3. |
Can't Wait
03:46
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Sit as my thoughts marinate in my head
Sit and anticipate the morning ahead
And I can't sleep but a wink
Just can't think about anything else
And I count backwards from 10 twenty times
Another slow song on repeat in my mind
And I roll back and roll fourth
My attempts all fall short
Stuck at a red light
I can't wait 'till
Mind's at stand still
I can't wait 'till
We get across that hill
Can't seem to make it all come any faster
Falling asleep has turned into disaster
And that same slow song comes back
But the fact is it does me no good
And I close my eyes to see black and blue
To see you in the morning is what I look forward to
The city lights inside
My eyelids just won't burn out
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4. |
Run
04:36
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Hey you
The sky looks a little more blue
This thought on repeat is you
And I can't take my mind of this truth
It's the one thing that I haven't said
It's a fate that lies ahead
Easier to say alone in bed
Possible happiness that I dread
'Cause it's all about reaction
Oh I've never been so nervous in the world
It's just that sequence of these three small words
I've been delaying to
Say all night
Gotta say it tonight
Couldn't be much more
Perfect as perfect can be
Oh you know because we'll run. run, run around the world
You know and then we'll stay awhile
Oh 'cause we'll run, run, run around the world
You know you might be late awhile
Oh if its all right, it's all right
We watch the war
Don't pay attention. I've seen it before
Bigger issues knock at the door
With nerves I've never felt before
Don't be afraid when you can cop out
The campaign slogan of my self doubt
Decision's lost
Can't find a way out
Of my mind
I can't not think about it.
The night's set me up
Would be so right to say
Circumstances can't be better
Yet still I'm afraid
My mouth opens for a second
Shut it quick
Beat my doubt
But you catch me in the act
And force it all to come out
So glad there's more than one of us into it
And oh so glad my feelings found their reciprocate
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5. |
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It's been two hours
We went our separate ways
No time could fill all we wanted to say
I'd dread the day
Hoped I would be numb
Cause I never thought this day would come
Hasn't taken long for time to prove that I'm too dependent on you
And I look down, hope the phone will ring
Surprise, no missed calls or anything
Guess this is preparation for higher education
And I guess this consternation builds up anticipation
Please come home
Cause it sucks saying goodnight with no one else on the phone
Please come home
Cause it sucks saying goodnight when you're not at home
It's been two days
Making no progress
Cause I'm writing you longer messages
Reading your old letters
They act like postcards
Who knew vacation could be this hard?
Hasn't been long at all
At the start of the road
Looks like we've got quite a lot more ways to go
But it's good to know that you're having the time
Wish someone would come and speed up mine
It's been two weeks
I can see the light
Almost forgotten what your kiss feels like
For you its vacation, for me its hell
Life's just different, can't you tell?
You can't have summer without some rain
Guess you can't have love without some pain
I wanna hold you in my arms and fall asleep
Being gone is hard even just for weeks
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Sometimes I lie awake
Question my own mistakes
And how it would be if it was over
It kills me how the nights go by
And how hard she makes me hear you cry
But I still can't help but feel so helpless
And I want to help you so bad but I don't know how
And sometimes my job just feels undone
But you say that I do
Sometimes that's just so hard to believe
Because I can't help but feel so helpless
Because I can't help but feel so worthless
These thoughts won't stop coming to break down the wall
Telling me about what happens when we come to the fall
Every word that I say and how you it affects
But every last one is one I wanna reject
And you are just too good to throw it all away
Cause I thank God that you're with me everyday
But my nerves run a mile through the snow and the sleet
I guess these thoughts are from the dark side of my psyche
You deserve so much
Attention is what you need
But I just question if attention's good enough from me
Sorry if this comes off wrong
But I can only be speechless for so long
It hurts me when I don't know what to say
And I want to help you so bad but I don't know how
And sometimes my job just feels undone
But you say that I do
Sometimes that's just so hard to believe
Because I can't help but feel so helpless
Because I can't help but feel so pointless
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7. |
Stages Of Your Life
03:11
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Where did the time go?
Feels like we're just playing in snow, you know?
I've never seen the trees grow so fast
Did you think this would last?
Back when
We're ten
We're falling in leaf piles
Time to eat and skin up our knees
Climb trees with ease
And get stung by bees
With fake houses haunted
This is just what we wanted
And we're slumming
We're running back into the woods
And it's good
We should enter a new world
Now there's girls and pearls
And fake relationships
So nonchalant and we've entered the gauntlet
But it's time to go as we graduate from our life
We've made it this far you know and we've come too long to turn back
But these hallowed halls aren't really a home anymore
But I wish they were cause this life is all I know
Let's flash back
Relax
You're fourteen again
Let's begin with sin
And dreams of some skin
As we work
Alert
Responsibility
Something we're knowing but we get scared of showing
Upper class, you passed
Now some can look up to you
True, but told, this place ain't so old
As you're starting to listen its the thing that you're missing
All the clothes, cliques, and trends
Why can't we just play pretend?
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8. |
Our Afterlife (Acoustic)
02:32
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I'm free to do whatever I want to
It's not like I want to
But time says we have to
It seems to be the end of our story
But I'll bask in the glory of those four years past
So let's all join hands
Say we won't forget each other
Always talk to one another
So let's draw out a plan
So we don't have to see the light
This is the story of our afterlife
You're free to do whatever you want to
I know that you have to
But it's something I don't want to be
Cause what if you leave me?
If you all of you leave me
That'd probably kill me
And maybe life will make the wrongs all right
And maybe it could be like this till we say goodnight
We'll make our afterlife a heaven
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9. |
Run (Acoustic)
04:13
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Hey you
The sky looks a little more blue
This thought on repeat is you
And I can't take my mind of this truth
It's the one thing that I haven't said
It's a fate that lies ahead
Easier to say alone in bed
Possible happiness that I dread
'Cause it's all about reaction
Oh I've never been so nervous in the world
It's just that sequence of these three small words
I've been delaying to
Say all night
Gotta say it tonight
Couldn't be much more
Perfect as perfect can be
Oh you know because we'll run. run, run around the world
You know and then we'll stay awhile
Oh 'cause we'll run, run, run around the world
You know you might be late awhile
Oh if its all right, it's all right
We watch the war
Don't pay attention. I've seen it before
Bigger issues knock at the door
With nerves I've never felt before
Don't be afraid when you can cop out
The campaign slogan of my self doubt
Decision's lost
Can't find a way out
Of my mind
I can't not think about it.
The night's set me up
Would be so right to say
Circumstances can't be better
Yet still I'm afraid
My mouth opens for a second
Shut it quick
Beat my doubt
But you catch me in the act
And force it all to come out
So glad there's more than one of us into it
And oh so glad my feelings found their reciprocate
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10. |
Rollercoaster (Acoustic)
02:26
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I could lie about this but my face gives it away
I could try and fake it but I'd be acting everyday
I could write a sad song but I'm impartial to shades of grey
I could leave this apartment but I just can't break away
I could turn off my phone but I want to hear it vibrate
I could try and sleep but its so hard to concentrate
I could try and be sad but its too hard when I feel great
I could give a cold stare but I can't keep my face straight
I have a fear of heights
But you make me wanna ride a rollercoaster tonight
I'll dive off the deep end
I'll sing these cliched lines of how I'm so glad you're mine
You make me want to
Fall asleep and never wake up
Cause its you that I dream
And that is enough to make me stay dreaming
You're all that I dream
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11. |
Fly Home
02:57
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Am I alone in this?
You ask yourself in solace
Cause some nights tears can't help fall like the mist
See everyone around
High school's what's going down
But sometimes in the sea of smiles there's one frown
But you know there's one place that you always can go
We've got your back, no doubt, when your times get too low
But you know there's one place that you always can go
Life's like winter days off
Go play in the snow
Fly home, fly home
Fly home, the one place that you should know
Fly home, fly home
Fly home. I swear you're not so alone
May not call every night
That doesn't mean that you're the black sheep player cut from the team
Life's burdens are tough to bear and you know we've always cared
And you shouldn't think your friendship's made out of pity
Think about all you've done and all the night's we've had our fun
But just because you're not there yet don't mean its not coming
You know thing's happen for a reason
You know God doesn't have a hit list
We'll love you, no committed treason
Don't be so quick to dismiss this
Life ain't so bad
Look at all you have
College life
Good bros, good times
Finally at the starting line
Who knows what life holds in a whole 'nother city?
The things you may have missed out
New girls wait to be kissed now
It's the time, forget your life
Don't cry back to sleep
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12. |
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It's been two hours
We went our separate ways
No time could fill all we wanted to say
I'd dread the day
Hoped I would be numb
Cause I never thought this day would come
Hasn't taken long for time to prove that I'm too dependent on you
And I look down, hope the phone will ring
Surprise, no missed calls or anything
Guess this is preparation for higher education
And I guess this consternation builds up anticipation
Please come home
Cause it sucks saying goodnight with no one else on the phone
Please come home
Cause it sucks saying goodnight when you're not at home
It's been two days
Making no progress
Cause I'm writing you longer messages
Reading your old letters
They act like postcards
Who knew vacation could be this hard?
Hasn't been long at all
At the start of the road
Looks like we've got quite a lot more ways to go
But it's good to know that you're having the time
Wish someone would come and speed up mine
It's been two weeks
I can see the light
Almost forgotten what your kiss feels like
For you its vacation, for me its hell
Life's just different, can't you tell?
You can't have summer without some rain
Guess you can't have love without some pain
I wanna hold you in my arms and fall asleep
Being gone is hard even just for weeks
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13. |
It's Getting Better
04:39
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It's been awhile since I've written one of these
It's been awhile since I've stopped and told you what this means
Been listening to old songs in hopes it would suffice
But that's not good enough
The meaning's not quite precise
And I know we've hit hard times but please don't jump off that cliff
I'll take this time to remind you of the man you fell in love with
And though times have gotten crazy
Can fix it
Definitely maybe
But now look up there, the end of heartache is here
It looks like things are getting better
It looks like sunny's in the weather
It looks like things could be even better than before
It looks like things are getting better
I wrote you love songs in this letter
And I hope things get even better than before
If that was possible
I don't quite know what has been going on with you
If you need space don't let us take up space for two
You've got some trials you need to work out
I'm behind you thin and thickets
But I don't wanna waste anymore of my life without you in it
This is life
This is love
I think that's only thing I've ever been sure of
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14. |
Can't Wait (Acoustic)
03:45
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Sit as my thoughts marinate in my head
Sit and anticipate the morning ahead
And I can't sleep but a wink
Just can't think about anything else
And I count backwards from 10 twenty times
Another slow song on repeat in my mind
And I roll back and roll fourth
My attempts all fall short
Stuck at a red light
I can't wait 'till
Mind's at stand still
I can't wait 'till
We get across that hill
Can't seem to make it all come any faster
Falling asleep has turned into disaster
And that same slow song comes back
But the fact is it does me no good
And I close my eyes to see black and blue
To see you in the morning is what I look forward to
The city lights inside
My eyelids just won't burn out
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15. |
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Sometimes I lie awake
Question my own mistakes
And how it would be if it was over
It kills me how the nights go by
And how hard she makes me hear you cry
But I still can't help but feel so helpless
And I want to help you so bad but I don't know how
And sometimes my job just feels undone
But you say that I do
Sometimes that's just so hard to believe
Because I can't help but feel so helpless
Because I can't help but feel so worthless
These thoughts won't stop coming to break down the wall
Telling me about what happens when we come to the fall
Every word that I say and how you it affects
But every last one is one I wanna reject
And you are just too good to throw it all away
Cause I thank God that you're with me everyday
But my nerves run a mile through the snow and the sleet
I guess these thoughts are from the dark side of my psyche
You deserve so much
Attention is what you need
But I just question if attention's good enough from me
Sorry if this comes off wrong
But I can only be speechless for so long
It hurts me when I don't know what to say
And I want to help you so bad but I don't know how
And sometimes my job just feels undone
But you say that I do
Sometimes that's just so hard to believe
Because I can't help but feel so helpless
Because I can't help but feel so pointless
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Jim Ivins Richmond, Virginia
RVA. Singer/string-plucker for The Fan. Been doing this since Myspace wasn't even an idea.
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